Relationships: Is it worth the hurt on the way to unsure happiness?

My first blog, folks. Forgive and bear with me. I have a lot to deal with, (my job, upcoming studies, parents/ family life) but nothing drains my energy and draws my attention like my past and current relationships. I do not know what it's like for my readers out there, be it you are males in another part of the planet, (I'm from Trinidad, the Caribbean, lovely place) but I can say for myself... OUCH! Sure as hell, it hurts! My best friend is my anchor, at this point. Meaning, she is in the same boat as I am, just that I've still had boyfriends in the last 3 years, and she hadn't. She reminds me that I'm not the only one suffering in this fight for love! She's totally stuck on guy, while I can be very strong and handle rejection/ breaks and move on. Like Fergie sang in one of her songs, "A girl like me can't stay single for long..." But, heck! Sometimes, being alone is much more comforting, just that you don't have another to share it with... Hahaha! It was just a weird joke. Perdoname! Let me get down to the nitty gritty and get a bit personal for those men who even are a touch bit interested in wanting to know how some women think. First up, men. LIES and or HALF TRUTHS. They hurt a lot when revealed! I'm not saying that we women are saints; lies are just generally bad. My guy laid a horrible lie to me, months ago and it still haunts me! He says a lie is just a lie, and it doesn't matter. I beg to differ! Just like (fire) burns, they have severity! Guys, lying about a ladies outfit and saying she looks great, when in reality you just wanna keep her at home is one thing, but lying about being divorced when you still are married or you're just separated, is one heck of a hurt, for SOME WOMEN (decent ones)... Sigh... Yes, I said it. Months ago, (back in June, 2009) my Angel Eyes, told me when we just met, that he was divorced. In my mind, I'm like, "Yay, no attachments!" Well... Less than 2 months later, HIS WIFE called me and asked me why am I contacting her husband!!! What the heck? At that moment, I swore to never speak to him again, and after a few ignored calls to my cell, a mutual female friend contacted me and said that it happened to her as well, that my guy's wife called her! Our middle friend went on to explain that my sweetheart and his wife were just separated! Phew! Wait... That's still not right! Especially, if my folks got to find out... It's just not right. By then, it was too late. I had already (and damn quickly) fallen in love with him! I then reluctantly accepted his phone call, and he 'apologized' to me. Apparently, he and his wife are up in arms over the house and she goes to give him trouble, meaning taunt him, etc., to get him to settle and give her it all, for her new man and her to enjoy. WOW. That's a bit to swallow. Guess what? To this date, I'm still swallowing. It's November, and 2 days shy of my 25th birthday and I have been doing some serious thinking. I love him more than life itself and would give my all for him, but... IS IT WORTH IT?..